i meant to say a lot

about how i am feeling right now
how i feel like a loser
like a useless being
staying alive just to waste oxygen

about how i am so lost
so depressed
so hopeless
so disappointed
so strained

about how i hate myself
hate the world around me
hate everything that cross my eye

and yet
words failed me.

i think i am breaking down.
i feel like giving up.